I have been faced with death more than most people have… although I suppose numbers really don’t matter.  When someone you have loved is taken from you, there is an emptiness that is not easily filled and that back burner reminder that one day, you too must pass through that Veil of uncertainty.

I was always comforted by the fact that, as a Christian, I would eventually be resurrected when Jesus returned and be given a new body just like he was given… except I was a little concerned, because his new body still carried the scars of his crucifixion and, well… I had lost a finger at the age of ten, the vision in one eye from shrapnel at the age of 20, and at the age of 30 had my gallbladder removed. Plus I have some scars from other minor surgeries and wounds that make me less than attractive, and I wondered if I would be happy throughout eternity living in the same body as I had here. The excess weight, I have always tried to lose, would also be a burden in Heaven, although without a Coca-Cola vending machine perhaps I could lose some of it. Another question would also come to mind at times; of what age would my new body be and would I have a choice in deciding or would I just have to accept the body given to me?

These questions seem so childish now and the thought of having a resurrected body seems so utterly absurd to me. You see… I have now come to realize that death is not the end of Life, it is only the end of form. Life is formless and is Eternal and therefore cannot be destroyed. This now is my source of comfort… and knowing that there will be no period of waiting for eternity to start but rather just an awakening on the other side of the Veil, is something I can actually look forward to. The Essence of who I am, will not change… but the form I have been attached to will no longer be a burden.

For a great video on this subject I strongly recommend going to this link on YouTube: . I would be very surprised if you don’t get a great feeling of Peace from it.

Wayne Dale Matthysse

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  1. If a God was really involved in the world he could do a far better job then we see now days and welcome to the club of formlessness !!!

  2. Hi Wayne,

    I’m so glad you are feeling better. Just give up the Coke and anything not made in nature. All those are killers.
    When I was growing up, Catholic as well, the nuns told us that after we died we’d be reunited with our bodies in heaven. One of us asked how old are bodies would be, since old people really don’t much like their bodies, and the nun said 20 years old. So I pondered on that; what about the people who hadn’t lived until they were 20? No answer. So I deduced that she was making this up. Where do they get this stuff? Are they taught it in nun school? I thought we weren’t supposed to tell lies! And lying to impressionable children is even worse.
    But we’ll continue to disagree on the existence of a higher power.
    Be well,

  3. I dont understand how you still cling to the idea that there is something ‘ beyond the veil ‘ . I can well understand that people who believe can find peace in approaching death and this can ease the passing and be helpful . But to be honest one must say ‘ expect nothing ‘. We are animals , no more no less . I expect death to be just falling asleep and not waking . How can religions go on promising something that they have no evidence exists . One of their many con tricks .

  4. Wayne Dale Matthysse

    Hi Richard,

    Thanks for the response… you bring up an important question that each of us ask but no one has an answer to. I do not believe in a resurrection of the body, or form, I now have but I do believe in the continuation of LIfe, and what I have done with the Life I have been given, the essence of who I have become, will have an effect on Life as it continues to evolve throughout eternity. My reason for believing this is because of unexplained phenomena that I have witnessed firsthand… the most extraordinary of which you can see here. I may be wrong about this but as you say, it is comforting to believe that my efforts in this Life will continue to have an effect on future generations of Life in what ever form it manifest itself… and should I not awake from my sleep I have the comfort of knowing I did my best. I agree that the church has pulled one of the greatest con games in the history of mankind.. I also agree that we are members of the animal species… but I am not sure I would agree that All animals, plants, and other manifestations of LIfe only live and die. Perhaps we all have an eternal effect on Life.

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